12.28.09

I had a brief dream today:

I stepped into what looked like a noose laying on the ground, it was a loop made of rope, and I saw my foot step into it, and just then, a man in a white robe carrying a lantern came up quickly behind me, bent down, and removed the rope from around my foot before I took another step. The man's robe had a hood, his face was covered, but I knew he was a friend and I knew he came and set me free from yet another trap.... or snare.

I know this man was my friend Jesus. But I don't know what this particular trap represents. I do sense it's something current, because He appeared just in time, before I could take another step.
It was dark, and He was carrying a lantern, and it was the light from the lantern that illuminated the rope that was about to ensnare me.

What could it be? Well, I would have to say, take your pick! Jesus, please don't stop watching me on this path.... keep Your lantern close by

*sigh*



I just ate an entire tupperware container full of something my grandmother invented for Christmas. I say invented instead of made. She invents things in the kitchen. If I ever can, I'll make a video/interview of her in her kitchen, cooking. It will blow your mind. She pours liquor over duck as it's cooking in the oven. She makes "lamb with mint jelly", a nightmare on a plate. She makes "Bishops Bread" at Christmas, a fruitcake that makes you regret having tastebuds, and for my step-grandfather she would whip up his favorite, "scrapple", which is a conglomeration of pig scraps. He claims it's what they eat all the time in Maryland, where he's from. Anyway, I just ate her latest Christmas invention, and it was wonderful. Tart cranberries blended with toasted oats and sugar, and some type of unknown fruit slices. Now that's the kind of thing I like. Any type of fruit with oatmeal is so good. I used to get a rice cake, spread it with peanut butter, sprinkle that with sugar, then banana slices, topped with oats. I'd make two of those and take them to school, when I was in community college. That's what I had for lunch every day.

I've been wanting to learn how to do simple animation, so I downloaded a few different programs, none of which I have the slightest idea how to do. I can't even figure out how to draw a straight line on one. And I got the ones that claimed to be the easiest. You open up the drawing page, and there's geometry lines going every which way, and when you try to draw, it creates more complications and you end up very, very confused. Not to mention the color charts. Whatever happened to colors? Now you have to know math to use colors?

I am slowly being squeezed out of every aspect of living on Planet Earth. I'm surprised the basic things like food and water haven't turned on me yet. Or, that my bed doesn't ask for a password before I take a nap. Why is everything so complicated?